Silint Hill

The days pass by so fast, it seemed as if time had stopped. But the sound of his footsteps could still be heard from miles and miles away.

He was a boy who always kept everything to himself. He tried not to let the world find him, but accidentally exposed himself to the sun. In the end, he usually ended up with sunburns. But yet he crawled back under the shadows which provided him with shade.

Sometimes, he would sit under a tree and think, 'Was I right?'. The thoughts that ran through his mind were contradicting to his ideals...but he didn't really gave a long thought about it. He knew it was just a waste of valuable energy which he needed badly for his continuous survival.


And so his path leads him to busy roads filled with chickens crossing, or rivers where he saw ducks having a cup of coffee while fishing, or even a silent hill where chilly winds blew through his cloths and gave him shivers.

U-Nite

Man, it's getting nearer and nearer towards the competition, and yet I still have no idea of persuading my parents to let me join. I just hope everything turns out well, because I'm the weakest among them all.

I guess it's hard for me, especially when I'm a shy person who isn't so brave to face social issues...weird. Wakaka...

Studying for exams, I'll have to balance it all with my practices so that I won't be left behind and fail my subjects anymore. SPM is coming soon after all.

Other than all that, there's nothing else to say. This blog is becoming more and more boring as time goes by. Haiz...

Week

Another week, another day, another hour, another second. It just flew by as I continued to type. But it doesn't really matter to me much. It's another week that's filled boredom. And seriously, this week is nothing other than sleep and eat.

But I went to listen to my law course with my friend. It was really tiring. Not because of the physical pressure but mental pressure. Me and her had to think of some way to keep our eyes open and not look as if we're gonna sleep anytime soon. That's what I call hard work. *sigh* But overall, at last it's over. I'll be doing my law test this Saturday with her again...since she's too scared to go alone.

If only something fun and exciting would pop up.

Verbals and Accusations...

For whatever happened today, I'd not want to think about it so much, as it is not beneficial to me. Rather, I would only care about those who really need my help and at least appreciate it, even if it's a little.

Or so to say, why should I take the blame for everything that goes wrong in someones life? In the end, I'm only making myself look stupid and miserable. There are times when even a man must take his stand and fight.

Can I make everyone happy? A simple question that everyone knows the answer. But isn't it ironic when you actually know the answer but yet still continue to do the same thing hoping for a better answer? Somehow, I seem to care a lot about it.

And to top it off, I don't care the least of whether people believe me or not. Suspicion and doubt exist i each and everyone of us. Lost of trust...I don't give a shit about that. If you can't place your trust in someone, then what's the point of actually saying I trust you and after all the bad times, you lose your trust.And that's what I think. I don't mind if you all disagree with me. After all, this is my opinion and my policy.

When some people face a challenge in life. For example, they cant get something in their want list, they turn their backs and point their fingers to people who stand the most chance of been on guilt.

So even if I apologise, any idiot would be able to predict the answer from the person that's blaming they. It's just waste of saliva falling on stone hearts and deaf ears.

You can call me scum of the earth, detestable, shit, trash, etc. I don't give a damn about all that. Shit me up all you want, because I wont fight back. It's a hassle.

Fishes of the Lake

Oh, by the way. I forgot to mention about my fishing trip and how I was stupidified by the fishes. I can't believe it still...

And about my Gawai celebration...I went to 2 of my friend's houses and a swim at Waterpark with a few of my girl friends and guy friends in the evening.

Practically, other than that, I didn't really do anything much other than just lazing around the house and reading mangas plus watching animes.

!st July...

It's coming~~! Finally, Gawai is coming. I'm so looking forward to this year's Gawai event. Pork is the BEST~~! You cannot live without pork. Yeah~~

Wakaka...and that's what's coming soon. Back to the norms. Exams have just finish...finally. Stressful days and lack of sleeps and mangas are now over. But that's only for the meantime. My work is getting okay...but it's really tiring and boring...well, that can't be helped. It's a wonder how people can live on and work their lives out with boring jobs...

And for your references, animes and mangas are on hold. So those who are still questioning me about it...so very kindly please~lah, I beli laji 1 2 lipit maisalf agan. Soli ya...

It's coming~~it's coming~~ ya ya~!

An Emotional Emo

It's another day like any other days...just with a lil' surprise. Yet again, it can be considered as nothing.

Like always, I'll just move on to the point. Yesterday, I just fought with my shuffle leader. Rather to call it a fight, I would put it in a way to say that I guess it's my fault. I couldn't keep my cool any longer. Guess my tolerance level still needs to be patched up and fixed.

It's like, try to think about it. You do all you can for the group and when something really happens and it's true although it looks fake, people don't believe you. That time I was sick, and I really needed a lot of rest since the coming exams were very near. I told my leader. And the sentence he said really made my hat fly. Is it really that fun to see people being fooled? Is it that nice to act all fake and look at the idiotic faces of those who got fooled? And what did he say? "Ok, Go fake on John."

Even thinking about it now makes me a little agitated and angry. And due to that, I quit shuffling. You can say it was also for the welfare of the group. I'm not good...and no matter how long I train, I'm still so far from them, those that I admire and consider them my 'sensei'. I would only drag them down and make them slower. Haha...

Sometimes I can get really emo...or maybe I was emo all along...

SoNy EricSsoN W580i

Another day like any other day is today's day. What we all live for in this short yet fun-filled life is all about something which only each and everyone of us can tell apart since it's our lives. What"lah" am I saying here... haiyo!

Anyway! I'm back again...with usual news again, though I can't really remember the last time I last blogged here. Okay...

I'll just start anywhere I think I should. My birthday just passed, yeah!!! And I didn't celebrate it, yeah~~~! B'coz I didn't have the cash to bring people along...poor me. I didn't really fuss so much about it...since it was more of a natural occurance that every year, I never celebrate it. But I just want to thank all those that could remember my birthday...and those that could not.

Finally, my dad promised me a new mobile phone! Overjoyed by the happiness, I shall upload the picture of the phone I've been waiting for...YA~HA!!! Sony Ericsson W580i!


So that's about that. The rest of the days were...well, normal, you could say. But for those who really know me like those in Miri and in Kuching, I think you all should know what I mean...hehe...

School life is just all about work and study. Study...study...study... But since I'm going to have my 1st semester exams, I have to study . I need my results so I can go learn my law...(still can't believe my mom blackmailed me into this).

I'm sick again... It's been going a lot of times since the beginning of form 4. Haha...something must be very wrong. The sickness of the day, flu and cough.

A new guy just moved over to out school. Some guy called Richard Wong from St Joseph, Miri. And the best part of all...he's totally clueless with bahasa Sarawak! It can't be helped. I found out that not many residence of Miri can speak bahasa Sarawak...and if they could, they could only speak a little. But that doesn't really matter to me. At least we got a new guy to play around with...hehe.

Oh, before I forgot...I just finish some animes and mangas! Yesh...finally. The animes that I now watch are a little old...so I can't really say it's all new. I'm currently watching Kyou Kara Maou! R!, Kyou Kara Maou! 3rd Season, Futakoi Alternative, One Piece, Daa! Daa! Daa!, Eyeshield 21, Hayate no Gotoku, Himawari, Capeta and Futakoi. The list is gonna be finished soon...and a new list will be up again. The manga's on-the-way are Highschool of the Dead, Eyeshield 21, Unbalance X Unbalance, One Piece, Anti Gravity Boy and a few more that I can't really remember the names . My stocks should be replenished around this season soon...so, watch out! And I finally met a girl with nearly the same interest with me...hehe...though I haven't really confirmed her existence and her identity properly.

That should be all about everything for now. SO now I shall make my new move into production.

Eternal Puff~~~!!!! GO!!GO!!

Gunz' N' DEADz'

Yeah...I'm back again, from my disappearance. Wouldn't know how long it has been...but who cares? haha~~ Anyway, back to the live statements.

School life's like normal...as always. Just that I'm still struggling with my studies and attitudes. Other than that, my homeworks...they're like ~~'wow'(if you know what I mean)

Crap classes are like normal...just with a few additions to it, like Physics. Other than that, it's just the normal.

Shuffling has been going well and cool all the way. I'm at least happy with my progress...though I am still VERY far from good. My group has just changed it's name from HSS to HSK. The team logo's something like this:-


My normal daily lifestyle is no different from other kids. I go to school, I come back from school, I watch my anime, I read my manga, I play my games, I eat, I sleep and I do everything again. I can't really think of anything that had really been more-than-normal that I find worth saying. Other than that, it's as it is.

My exams are still in the way of progression...but I'm really not motivated to go on. I can't really see myself realizing my dreams and goals(and if I could...wow).

And with this...let the BASS bash you!

HSS...

I can't believe myself that I actually left this part out for nearly one whole month straight...though it's actually over one month. Anyway, lets get up to date. The same as usual, eat, play, sleep, homework, study.

The polling day has just ended...with a tremendous defeat in the Barisan National(BN) against the Oppositions like DAP, Keadilan, PKR, PAS and so on. But that's not really my real concern. Rather, it's got nothing in common with me for now.

I've just recently started to learn how to dance(Shuffle) but I'm like practically not really good at it. I think it'll take me at least nearly half a year to learn and practice everyday to just be at a not-so-horrible level. But so to say, I don't really want to do it in public...

I've just been shoved into a mooting competition...and it's like I've practically have no idea how to do it...haha. We're(John, Jared, Sara, Fiona, Cedric, Nicole) gonna try our best to bring the other teams down and be in the running to move off to Australia for the Grand Finale.

Anime watching and Manga reading has been on a stop, since I'm kinda packed up with my shuffle practice and mooting. Not forgetting my debate match in April. Packep up like a beanbag. Anyway, just for your information, anime and manga sales are on stop now, since my partners and I are busy with studies and exams. Yeah, so to my buyers...sorry! Ya~Ha!!!

We the HSS are gonna blow your minds out with our shuffles...YEAH! Turn on th BASS!

Left Out...

Wow...time does fly really, really fast. It's nearly a month since I last posted up something...

Anyway, now to update this boring site of mine. Life's having it's ups and downs. I'm as usual...just with a lil' difference. School's been really tough. Studies are coming in. The pressure is getting heavier...yeah...I can feel it, I think.

Practically, I've been digging my own grave these few days....for no reason. Sleeping late, not finishing homeworks, putting priorities at the wrong places....you name it, I did it.

Also, I'm not really on my best acts now. Basically, my emotions are wavering my ability to think professionally and effectively. I'm not sure if it's my fault, but my friends are leaving my one by one. I mean...I'm good with the Bumiputras and the Malays...and my girlfriend is an Iban...but it's my Chinese friends that are leaving me. Just to put it simple...perhaps they think I've abandoned the Chinese Brotherhood which I did not but can't explain to them. I've been a bad friend...failing them in everything I do. So the blame's on me.

Other than that, life's pretty good here. I'm grateful to God that my girlfriend is one person that I did choose well...I think. My parents are out-of-the-ordinary. I'm good with kids now. I smile more. I laugh more. I can do things people are afraid of doing out of pride. All these I can do, because He did it. Thanks to that person, Jesus.

Black, black, black, black, black, black, white, black, black, black,...left out

A-lone

I totally forgotten about this site since I was so packed up with homeworks and assignments. Life's not as easygoing as it was this year, bearing the fact that I'm now in my last year in high school and I'm gonna be taking my exams soon. But before all that, Happy New Year to everyone!!! I think...

1st day of school was ok...but being sick for nearly 3weeks is really no fun. What more to say, 4th day of school and I had to ask for permission to be excused from school due to my health. I'm really getting sick of being sick. Haiz...

Just for update, Lucky Star is now in the collection. Downloading has not been so good since my area is suffering from limited broadband...really really no fun at all. Kyo no Go no Ni is coming in soon. Rosario+Vampire has just been released, so downloading this anime won't start so early...haha

New Year's not really a fun stuff after all...if you're all alone...