Where's the ToRChLigHT...?

What can you find in this dark, abandoned place? Nothing. But surprisingly, people still strive to look and savage around. That's life for me.

Why in the world are people looking into my life? *sigh* I just don't understand humans. Anyway, cut that topic, 'coz it's real borin' for you all. I still can't really believe it that I haven't been blogging for nearly a month. Time sure flies when you're filled with homework.

The weeks just pass on without any fun. No surprises, no gifts, no commercials. More like a lifeless zoo, where all the animals rather sulk at a corner that entertain and make kids laugh.

Things ain't going the way I planned. Seems like I'm failing to help out in God's mission. My efforts are seeming to go down the drain. This is just no fun. I'm even loosing grip on a very important friend. Somehow, what I'm saying now just won't reach his heart. Where in the cycle of life have I gone wrong?! That question, only I and God can answer that question.

School works seem to be piling up day by day. Friends just seem to be farther and farther form me, drifting away. Time, the most precious thing in my life seems to be running out more and more. But I just pray that I can pull through this, with God's help and those close to me(if only I knew who they were).

Lots of people don't really know about my past, and neither my parents. Till now, I can't seem to find a really trustworthy friend. You know, when you've been betrayed so many times, you just seem to have paranoids in your head.

Today, I just don't really feel like myself. If I were normal, I wouldn't be saying all this, but I guess no one actually comes here...hehe. That's a good thing for me. Sometimes, I feel like I need a shoulder to lay my head on, but no one offers that service to me. In the end, it ends up with my head resting on the hard, cold floor.

Still wandering in the dark_ness, waiting for someone who would pass me a torchlight...